Bøker av Ellie White

Natasha Borthwick is Wearside FC's Number One, but after an embarrassing string of losses, she's not so sure she deserves that title anymore.Luke Ramshaw is the hottest developer in the gaming industry but as his deadline to complete his funding application fast approaches, he still has no game demo to present.The pair are thrown together by a meddling mutual connection in a last-ditch attempt to save both Natasha's team and Luke's career. The problem? They didn't exactly get off to a great start, but what happens when they get closer is a whole other ball game.

Winner of the Heartland Review Chapbook contest, finalist in the Wolfson Press Chapbook Competition & Two Sylvias Press Chapbook Contest, semi-finalist for Yellow Arrow Publishing's Chapbook Contest, shortlisted for Galileo Press Chapbook contest, & longlisted for The Rachel Wetzseon Chapbook Award"...a portrait of slow muting, of unfeeling and haunt. Each small vignette is a window into a life of macabre observation, quiet apathy, numbed survival and rage, dotted with moments of tenderness."-Kai Coggin, author of Mining for Stardust, Incandescent, and Wingspan"With Vanishing Below the Waist, Ellie White eloquently gives voice to frequently silenced medical conditions that can be faced by people with vaginas, such as dyspareunia, vulvodynia, and endometrioma. Vanishing Below the Waist provides a brave and unflinching portrayal of living in a body that's riddled with question. These poems defy patriarchally constructed notions of shame without ever feeling preachy or pedantic. With elegant lyricism and spellbinding imagery, White's poems dazzle as much as they rage; they glitter and burn, sing pretty and haunt."-Stevie Edwards, author of Quiet Armor

Zara McIntosh and Noah Williams fall in love at Christmas.The problem is, he's her older brother's best friend and no-one knows she's secretly divorced.Christmas Day will test them, will their relationship survive?

A tragic injury forces footballing legend Molly Davison into early retirement. Football is her life and now that she can't play anymore, she embarks on a new path as a coach for Wearside FC.Captain of the team, Jordan Robinson, is preparing to hang up his boots at the end of the season and after being in the game his entire life, he's having an existential crisis. Not to mention the only woman he's ever had feelings for is back on Wearside, worse still, she's officially off limits.Molly is Jordan's new coach, she's building a reputation for herself in the men's game and paving the way for women just like her. Staying away from the team captain should be a no brainer but when their chemistry sizzles on and off the pitch, it's easier said than done.A romance that was once so easy has new challenges as the pair try to navigate their budding relationship through the world of men's professional football. Will their love risk the reputation Molly has worked so hard to build or can they finally have their happy ever after a second time around?

Harriet Adams was a West End rising star until a lapse in judgement cost her her dream job, her boyfriend and so called friends.She packs up her life and moves back to Sunderland where she gets a rare second chance at a career she thrives in. As she's about open a shiny new musical in front of a home audience, she vows that this time, nothing is going to get in her way. With everything riding on this, she'll play it safe, work hard and most importantly, stay away from theatre guys.Cue Liam Wright, Assistant Stage Manager.Liam is everything Harriet didn't know she needed in her life, but he also has a secret. One that could advance his own career if he cashes it in. The only catch? It would ruin any chance of happiness with Harriet if she finds out.Harriet and Liam share a love like no other, but will that be enough to save their budding relationship when the time comes?

"and for too long after" is a hybrid memoir combining poetry with creative nonfiction. It tells the story of a narrator in her late twenties making peace with her past. The narrative begins with two sisters sitting across from each other at a restaurant near Indianapolis, the eldest having just found her first gray hair. This simple sign of aging comes to life in the hands of a narrator who never expected to survive her adolescence. Through a series of poems, she recounts her lifelong battle with mental illness, culminating in a long poem detailing a recent hospitalization for suicidal ideation. The setting changes in the middle section. The narrator climbs Croagh Patrick in Ireland, and her struggles as a novice climber are interwoven with more flashback-style poems. She shows how her father's addiction, her mother's explosive temper, and her own sexual trauma left her unable to trust others. Also, in this section, the narrator describes how seeking a BDSM partner and building a power exchange relationship helped her recover.We return to Indiana in the final section. As the meal ends, the narrator begins to bring all the threads of her story together again. Just as her sister chooses to save the gray hair rather than throw it away, the narrator chooses to accept her past. But she also chooses not to let it take control. She has faced her self-destructive side, and it will never completely be gone, but it's not going to stop her from moving forward.