Bøker av Jacquelyn Phillips

My name is Roxanne Vaughn, but you can call me Roxy. I'm a writer. Well, I'm trying to be a writer. I know that dropping out of pre-med and choosing to pursue a degree in English was a risky move in our current society. A society where money and success determine whether or not you are worthy of happiness. Of a good life. Of love.I am in love with love. That all-encompassing, can't think, can't breathe, can't eat sort of love. There's nothing more beautiful than knowing your heart belongs to someone else, and their heart belongs to you. That you have met the one person who will make you happy until death do you part. Your soul mate. I'm not, however, in love with my fiancé.I love him like a child loves their favorite stuffed animal. It's comforting. It's warm. It's been around forever. It has some serious wear and tear, but it's weathered the emotional storms by your side.It's a different sort of love. One that I'm afraid to lose.I left Northern California to run away from the first man I ever truly loved because he did not love me. I ran straight into the open arms of Zachary Cameron, drawn in by his handsome features, his sense of humor, and the adoration he showered upon me as if I were a goddess deserving of worship. At least, that's how it felt at the time.Living in San Diego isn't so bad. I have friends. I have a cat. I have crippling anxiety.Maybe I am on the path to becoming a penniless writer. Maybe I'm destined to wait tables to afford a college education. Maybe I'm in a relationship whose foundation is built on lies. Maybe the expectations I've placed on my soul mate are too high.It's not easy being a twenty-something year old girl desperately trying to find her place and purpose in this world. A very little bird terrified of the great, big sky.Maybe you've already taken that leap of faith - trusted your wings to take you higher and higher into the sky with others you love, and who love you. But I think I'll just sit here on this safe branch and wait.Because this branch isn't so bad. And the other bird on this branch has loved me despite my ugliest moments. Maybe it's not that all encompassing love, and maybe I want to push that bird off the branch most of the time, but that's life.It's okay to be a little unhappy as long as you don't wind up alone.Right?

My name is Roxanne Vaughn, but you can call me Roxy. I'm a writer. Well, I'm trying to be a writer. I know that dropping out of pre-med and choosing to pursue a degree in English was a risky move in our current society. A society where money and success determine whether or not you are worthy of happiness. Of a good life. Of love.I am in love with love. That all-encompassing, can't think, can't breathe, can't eat sort of love. There's nothing more beautiful than knowing your heart belongs to someone else, and their heart belongs to you. That you have met the one person who will make you happy until death do you part. Your soul mate. I'm not, however, in love with my fiancé.I love him like a child loves their favorite stuffed animal. It's comforting. It's warm. It's been around forever. It has some serious wear and tear, but it's weathered the emotional storms by your side.It's a different sort of love. One that I'm afraid to lose.I left Northern California to run away from the first man I ever truly loved because he did not love me. I ran straight into the open arms of Zachary Cameron, drawn in by his handsome features, his sense of humor, and the adoration he showered upon me as if I were a goddess deserving of worship. At least, that's how it felt at the time.Living in San Diego isn't so bad. I have friends. I have a cat. I have crippling anxiety.Maybe I am on the path to becoming a penniless writer. Maybe I'm destined to wait tables to afford a college education. Maybe I'm in a relationship whose foundation is built on lies. Maybe the expectations I've placed on my soul mate are too high.It's not easy being a twenty-something year old girl desperately trying to find her place and purpose in this world. A very little bird terrified of the great, big sky.Maybe you've already taken that leap of faith - trusted your wings to take you higher and higher into the sky with others you love, and who love you. But I think I'll just sit here on this safe branch and wait.Because this branch isn't so bad. And the other bird on this branch has loved me despite my ugliest moments. Maybe it's not that all encompassing love, and maybe I want to push that bird off the branch most of the time, but that's life.It's okay to be a little unhappy as long as you don't wind up alone.Right?

My name is Roxanne Vaughn. Most people just call me Roxy. My parents call me a disappointment. I'm not gonna lie - I hate how much they detest me, but I've learned to embrace their skepticism. What better way to write poetry than to feel like an outcast? Insecure? Ugly? Stupid? Even writing about my failure in pre-med has earned me some notoriety in my creative writing classes. Although, some people believe I should write fiction. I don't know if I could do that. It would probably end up being some distorted version of my own sick reality.I'm originally from San Diego, the daughter of two well-known doctors, and the younger sister to the prodigal offspring. I moved to Rohnert Park to attend Sonoma State, to escape the pressures associated with living under my parents' roof, and to hopefully create some friendships along the way. I just so happened to meet two extremely different boys - one residing in San Diego, the other in Rohnert Park - on this journey to self-discovery. I just so happened to fall in love with both, but only one holds my heart in the palm of his hands. I promise you I'm not one of those "typical" party girls. Well, at least I wasn't when I first walked onto the Sonoma State campus. My three best girlfriends converted me to their religion of binge drinking and bad decisions. I guess you could say I live two lives. Three, if you count hiding in my bedroom to avoid the societal pressures suffocating me. I'm just a normal girl who puts her pants on one leg at a time. Except I'm sleeping with two different men every time I put on my pants.Life could be worse. I could be striving to live the life of a penniless poet, bussing tables to afford an education my parents refuse to pay for. I could also be in a relationship built off of a foundation of lies. I'm just a simple twenty-something year old girl looking for her place in life. Maybe you're in the same position as me. But if you've already figured out who you are - all of that soul searching nonsense - please don't rub it in my face. I'm a poet. I'm a bad daughter. I'm a loyal friend. I'm in love. I'm a mess. I'm working on it. It's just taking me a little bit longer than expected.