13 Stages of Twin Flame Runner Awakening

When I was a newbie, I used to assume that only the chaser twin flame Surrenders. I was wrong. It was until I became the runner myself and later the chaser. I learned some unexpected surrender lessons. All my assumptions were debunked.
Surrendering and missing a twin flame does not have to work together as well. Missing a twin flame is a constant fleeting feeling in the background. No matter what you do or where you go, you miss him or her. Consciously or otherwise.
This is how my surrender happened when I was the runner twin flame: Firstly, I had put up an inner resistance against love. The twin flame experiences exposed my fears. My insecurities. The past pain I had repressed within. All the guilt I had not dealt with. I had parts of myself that I treated as unworthy and undesirable.
When I ran away from my twin flame, I assumed that I was running away from the situation. That everything would go back to normal like before I met him. I thought that it was a temporary crush that would eventually fade away with time.
Unfortunately, blocking him was a trigger to awaken all the demons within. I felt confused as to why I still felt this uncontrollable strange intense connection between us. I felt as if my heart was breaking open because of missing him - it felt as if half of me was taken away. I felt lost and restless. During the good days, I would cry like a baby when the chaotic emotions set in. During the worst days, I would try many ways to block the connection. I was constantly lovesick. I felt his energy with me all the time.
I started drinking to numb the pain which is a very bad idea by the way. I try to stop thinking of him if I surrounded myself with unworthy company because I was afraid of being alone with my feelings and thoughts. I felt terrified of solitude.
I tried to run back to fixing my marriage and try to forget our encounter.
Anyway, my surrender kicked in when I got tired of running from myself. I accepted that I cannot escape the occurrences that were triggered in my life. I acknowledged that I cannot control the nature of my twin flame situation. And I also opened my heart bravely to let unconditional love in. To heal. To accept me.
Therefore I surrendered the moment I accepted myself, the connection, and my twin flame. I surrendered to the higher power to heal me. To guide me through this journey. I stopped running altogether. I felt free. I surrendered to what is.
It is very strange how the runner is always trying to block the twin flame but it is for that very reason that you keep thinking of him or her.
If you are a twin flame runner twin flame struggling with surrendering to your twin flame journey, this book is your starting point.
I wish you more blessings and love. Stay Blessed!