To: all the friends I killed

After the death of his best friend, a young man vanishes from the United States, seeking a fresh start in France. He stumbles upon work at a vineyard, and thinks he has found a way out in a land of ancestral beauty.But he quickly discovers Europe alone can't solve his problems. Haunted by his past, he has to come to terms with his own and his society's expectations of adulthood. Dark enchanted truths about love and friendship complicate the story of how he lost his best friend - a sister, a girlfriend, a lodestar. In this coming-of-age novel, we are faced with the life choices of the millennial generation, the postponement of traditional benchmarks in our twenties, and the queer or asexual attitude towards contemporary loneliness.