Ultraviolett

An autobiographical tale of half a life, telling about family, loss and death, as well as spiritual development, drug and alcohol excesses and gaining knowledge about the workings of the "law of attraction". It runs like a red thread through my whole life. A life in which I have to find myself again and again with an unexpected twist. Arrived in my center and one hundred percent happy.
Family does not necessarily have to be one hundred percent genetically related to each other, but Andreas Keudel was and is with me. Andi lived a life of pink, actually ultraviolet, always a little outside the visible range, and it is with him that I would like to begin my story. "Lilac is the color of the season," he used to say when he couldn't think of anything better for the current situation he was in. Lilac is the hue that borders directly on "ultraviolet." This motto shaped him throughout his life, in which he courted attention, recognition and love. A life that always took place at the margins, just as the invisible range of the light spectrum in ultraviolet is precisely not visible, but can only be experienced as such by measuring methods. A life is more than the sum of the experiences which rain down on the individual from birth to the coffin lid. To live means order and chaos equally and both have the same value. Max Planck's law of entropy states that there is only the natural flow from order to chaos. However, the Law of Attraction assumes that everything is malleable through free will. Good heavens, then it should also work the other way around. It says that one gets more from everything on which one directs the focus. Be it now love, poverty, attractiveness, wealth or illness. Provided that there is the one creator, which has equipped the human individual with a gift, namely to be able to create the way of the life even after his gusto and his taste and this would also allow the flow from chaos to order. Only unfortunately the 'superiors' have left people alone with this gift and have not taken into account how values and principles can curtail individual freedom of choice and almost paralyze a person, almost forcing him to give up themselves.